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you can close your eyes to things you don't want to see

but you can't close your heart to things you don't want to feel.

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monday blues i guess. today i feel like a walking zombie.

cause i slept like at 3am and woke up at 6.

left house with glacier accompanied her to clemnti

and reach ngee ann at about 7.

lessons are as per normal(boring)

oh well. holidays are over hope they come soon.

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most of the time being alone it just brings my mind

back to him. it feels like he's a thousand miles away,

and everything just happened yesterday.

later in the evening got badminton training.

before that i've got some great people like

feng feng, chen chen, chua chua and a teddy bear

to accompany me. badminton wasn't as easy as i

thought. i puke after half an hour of the training.

and rested throughout until the games.

damn disappointed with myself. at that point i

feel like a useless brat, a weakling. oh well.

it just means i got to put in more effort.

anyway thanks to this teddy bear i feel much better

thanks for all the care and concern(:

*

life's full of choices yet the ones that seem important

could be trivial at the same time. one wrong choice

could easily lead to regrets.

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shall share a little story.

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you see that little girl crying over there?

all she wanted was a little more love from ones around her

but sad to say, she is tired, lonely, stressed,

can't keep up anymore.

when she went to sleep,

her dreams haunt her,

when she woke up. no one was there.

no one at all.

then she realised how miserable she really is.

that little girl on the edge of breaking down

yet don't want to let anyone know.

afraid that they might be worried.

thinking she doesn't deserve those kind of attention.

thinking she ain't worth it.

she stood rooted wiped away those tears and

moved on.

she thought she'll be strong, the strongest

for the ones around her.

be there for them, even if she's being taken

for granted, it doesn't matter.

the strong front that she build will protect her

the smile and cheerfulness would bring light

around her. hiding those sad times to be

unleashed when she's alone.

no one ever notices,

no one will notice.

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nights