it's the season

sup people,
so it's a season of either happiness or sadness. well, let me explain okay? for me it is the season of happiness. i got together with the guy i like and i feel it's easy to communicate with him. and my friends are there for me. recently i feel warmth from the people around me such as the horrible bunch of freshies with their snap chat, my babe chloe & jiawen. close friends in school, leepeng, eve and suraj. last but not least, MY HUBBY JUN HENG. (he wants me to write this). some fame he wants there. oh well. anyways, the other way would be season of sadness. like family matters. well, my friend is forced o sell her dog cause her mum doesn't like it. while, some others they have family problems that has caused his school days to be harder to attend. making his days unbearable. so for all you readers out there, no matter the season you're in, enjoy while you can and try to be understanding for any problems that you face. it's just the season, it'll past. so a shout out to all of you out there, stay strong(:
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selfish
yes selfish, but i don't mean those kind of selfish in primary schools like you don't lend your pencil and shit. but i do miss those days though. anyway back to the point. selfish in a way that you only think of yourself first. you never put anyone in front of yourself. i mean it is good in a way, but sometimes you just got to think for your parents and probably close friends. for example, there is this friend that you always confront with and now he/she needs your help yet you just turn your back on them. right, it may not be your problem and so but they ever spend their time helping you, listening to your rants and sufferings. so can you not be so selfish and give some of your time to help them in return? take it as returning a favour or whatever. ugh. just do it. the other scenario is, your parents.parents especially your mother had gone through such a big ordeal and pain to give birth to you followed by the large amount on money they have to spent on you. the time they have to contribute to spend time with you. worried that you  will be lonely, afraid you can't solve your problems or have problems with the other kids in your school. to have to cook and make sure you eat your 3 meals daily. do you even see how much sacrifice they are making? just to make sure you are living a good life? the best part is they don't really complain about it. they just want you to know their presence. care about them once in a while, appreciate what they have done for you. i don't see anything wrong in that. yet, kids are so pampered and protected that they only care about what they think and want. can you kids not be so selfish? and spare a thought for them? whenever you get hurt, do you know they are panicking inside? i use to hide my injuries when i got home. when i get bullied in school, i never told my mum. i do not want her to worry. but now it seems like the exact opposite. now people only care about their own feelings.
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i think my keyboard is on fire. literally spamming the keys and typing at the fastest speed i have every had, together with all the fury i had. ugh. at least it's out. so bear with me for a bit. one more short topic and i'll conclude the post.
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judgmental
honestly i don't like people that judge based on first impressions. it is just unfair to people. you don't even know them yet you judge. what's worst is you talk behind people's back like as if they won't know about it. everything takes time. honestly, i hope you burn in hell. she might not be my family or close friends but at least i know she is a good friend to keep. if the person smoke, go ahead let the person smoke. yes you might not like the smell, but it's not like they would smoke in front of you and blow the smoke in your face 24/7 right? if you have a tattoo, so be it. it's also not your body, who are you to say anything. people have more friends of the opposite gender. so? they are her friends not yours. why bother? even so what's wrong with that? unless you are sexist or something. i'll give it to you hands down, you win. well, to the rest of you out there, just try not to judge based on first impressions. it really sucks.
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so, today.... actually i've got nothing much to say. the day was normal. well, the only things i remember was meeting hubby and telling him about my past vice versa. and.... i didn't eat for the whole day till 9 plus 10. okay okay, those people out there, don't slaughter, murder or rape me. i'm sorry about that and i'll eat regularly okay? yupp so that's it from me.
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nights(:
watch out for the boogie man.
he's watching you.
from the back..