once again

hey guys(:
a huge load off my chest(:
today, though not the best day,
i feel a sense of achievement.
NP doubles first once again(:
okok. so today was semi
finals and finals. so it's like
i had to play against her
cause of the balloting. so
my partner and i were both
afraid cause she was quite strong.
and he was there. coaching i think.
we wished each other best of luck
and went to face our fear.( like going die.-. hahhaha)
so we won the first, lost the second.
aaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnddddddddd
we won the third.
yupp. so happy. but the process of
the matches wasn't pleasant.
i mean, they got a lot of friends
there. so it was like every point
they scored, we lost, people clapped
but when it was us, it was kind of dead silence.
oh well. pressure, pressure.
anyways what matters most, we won.
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HEAVY NOTE: IF YOU DON'T WANT
TO BE UNHAPPY OR INSULTED DO
NOT READ THE FOLLOWING.
IT'S THE END FOR YOU.
sportsmanship. yes, i know i have discussed
about it. but i want to again.
after you lost the point, for badminton.
please do return the shuttle properly.
dafaq. you serve all the way to the back.
for who to take and serve? ah piao?
whatever. i feel that the match was kind of
unfair. there was bloody 2 shots that were
in. somehow it was seen out. nice one.
congrats guys. you got it. happy?
sorry i brought it too personal.
just typing what i felt.
*
don't pressure us when it isn't our fault to
start with. in between of our camp and production,
there were tons of time. you comm don't want to
publicize. yet one week before, you announced
that we've got not enough audience. what shit is
this? so what if it's your last production? if
you didn't put in much effort, shut the f up.
don't give us unnecessary pressure. it's also
not like we're not asking our friends. it's also
not like i have a role to promote. they wanted
to come but when they heard that i am not performing,
they asked what's the point? how you want me to
answer? i am dancing. i still don't see how is it linked
i never saw the link in the first place. so what if
you got a list of people to call? bitch please.
tell me a good reason why i should sacrifice so much.
and i will. if not, leave some of us as it is. cause
honestly, i don't feel obligated to.
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to end it off, HAPPY BIRTHDAY RODNEY
and to my dear sister, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY
nights