never someone's first.c

sup people on earth.
honestly, today is horri-
i shall not type the whole thing
it's better this way. it was chaotic.
for the group project. it was like shit.
we don't even know what are we doing
and out of the blue, it's done.
so where does the group comes in?
maybe it's just the three of you. well,
so be it then. i'll go all out to prove that
not always does the majority wins.
later on was ILSCM FOC GL interview.
as usual i was being a retard and can't
wait to exit the room. i just don't like
people staring. it's uncomfortable.
anyway, still hope i'd make it for GL.
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i feel as though whatever race you are,
you are still human you can judge however
the f*ck you want but respect them please?
it's also not like they offended you personally.
everything should be made clear from the start
unclear thoughts and feelings would just make
everything complicated. yes. i might be rushing
into things, but that's how i feel. if you don't
like it in any way, say it. make things easier.
i'll back off and disappear before you know it.
real quick like i never existed before.
good enough? just a sentence. i'll be gone
like you've never met me before.
i don't want to dwell in this anymore. it's
tiring. holding on to something, that probably
is nothing indeed. cause what's not yours, will
never, ever be yours.
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erm.. so these are some quotes and paragraphs i found
from previous posts. so here goes:
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i know i am not good enough. i am still trying very hard.
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one word to describe my life?
fucked (up).
that's two words kind of explains why.
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one day. 20 years, two people.
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hello darling, it is anniversary,
and you aren't happy and deleted his contact.
but you can memorize it. can't you?
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as the sun rose, with headphones covering my ears,
i bopped my head and skipped to school.
awaiting a new day that will be similar to any other.
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hey, you see that little girl crying over there?
all she wanted was just a little more love from the ones around her.
but sad to say, she is tired, lonely, stressed and can't keep up anymore.
so she went to sleep and woke up.
no one was there. no one at all.
then she realized how lonely she really was.
in that cold HDB flat.
you were her weren't you?
on the edge of breaking down yet you don't want anyone
to know cause you don't want them to worry.
wipe away those tears. you got to be strong remember?
you have to.
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i am never good enough
there's this something i always lack in
and i can't help it
and this thing
destroys everything
every part of the relationship.
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in the end everything is just going to be buried deep inside yourself.
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gone like summer breeze.
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nights
nightmares for everyone