hey there.

it's been ages since i posted. to me,

right now most things seems ancient.

it's as if everything is a dream. just in an

blink of an eye everything is gone. all of it

together with him. all the memories seemed

fake. the touch, the feelings, the times all

seemed to be very distant. there was a few

thoughts when it happened. the stronger ones

were feeling relieved and released. the other

was a sickening crack, the sound of shattered

glass, the feeling of being torn apart. though now

we're just good friends but it just doesn't feels right.

once but not now.

*

they always said that they don't believe that

i'll ever be attached cause i seem like those

people that have free and easy lifestyle. like

nothing could ever tie me down. always around

cheerful and nothing could ever bring me down.

they always said that i look like i never had troubles

and never seemed sad or angry. well, they're wrong.

i've got feelings that i get so used to locked inside

myself that it's so easy to hide from people.so easy to fake

a smile. that easy to put up a strong front that nobody

would notice. cause it's a habit, i hate letting people

get worried cause of me. i want and will be able to solve

my own problems. i hate relying on others.

*

it's just a hard time for me now. but i wish it'll pass

with a smile. though it's almost impossible. so back to

the present, i am stuck in between of badminton and

track and field. if i ever pass the trials tmr.-. that's all i guess

a poem coming up. it ain't by me though. credits to my friend.

*

saturday, 23.06.2012

went out with eugene MUI to watch the movie

really nice show, thanks to him or i'll miss this awesome movie.

actually i didn't even know it till he mentioned.

badminton afterwards was okay(:

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sometimes, i am able to read what you are thinking,

sometimes, i'm left in the dark

sometimes, i could feel how you feel to me, through your actions

but sometimes, i felt coldness, pain as though a stab in my heart.

ever did i make you doubt me, question, i'll say.

ever did i made you unhappy, tell, i'll do it right away.

i wished i could prove to you that i do love you.

through effort and actions to show that it's true.

seeing you, your smile was all that takes to brighten me.

your presence i'd yearn to see.

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nights(:

no matter how far you're gonna be, i'll always love you. for as long as it takes for you to forgive me...