unwell

sup guys, i know i shouldn't be posting
anything now but, i just miss typing
what i feel, how i feel. and i just need
some time out. not the snack, but a while
to chill and just relax, before starting the
revision for my next paper. so far, if i could
pass,i'll be satisfied enough, i guess. next
up would be accounts paper. should be
able to handle. anyway, i've been lacking a
lot of sleep recently. someone awkward
turtle said i looked damn pale, some other
friends just say i look restless. well, i feel
weak, tired, and recently, i kept having
headaches that i rarely have. at times, i
feel nausea. maybe that's due to too much
coffee. but i bet i can't survive without any
coffee. at times i just feel that i am awake
and asleep at the same time. unsure of what
i am doing. alright alright, enough of ranting.
*
on happy days, i hate everyone.
on normal days, i wish everyone just die.
on bad days, i just feel like killing everyone.
*
okay, don't mistake that phrase. i have absolutely
no intention of killing anyone now. it's just a thought.
have you ever felt this way before? like whenever
something happens, and there is nothing you could
do about it, don't you wish that every thing just
disappears altogether? thinking that, isn't it simpler
that way? i admit that's how i felt. well, maybe worst.
heh. anyways, people can't hep but to feel like that at
times. this is because sometimes the fact that it's
impossible to solve the problem is too overwhelming.
everyone is vulnerable and fragile when meeting their
problems. but only through this problems we will
build up and grow stronger.
*
that's all for now.
see you soon.
not physically though.
buh byes.