deepest darkest secrets

hello. i am back again. once again,
thanks to everyone out there that visits
this blog(: so here's something to talk about
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it's not that i feel that you will judge me
or anything but, there are just things you
never want anyone to know. everyone
have their own thoughts, perspective and
whatever shit. everyone have their own
deepest and darkest secrets that they
never want to tell. it's got nothing
to do with trust, it's just that those are things
are something that they never want to share.
like cause of insecurity within each and everyone
of us. the thought that once this secret is being
told, people closest to you will leave without
a doubt. what's left is just family. but honestly,
is it enough? just your family around. it might
be for some of us. but not for me. the thought
of it is plainly unbearable. there's practically
a reason why i didn't tell you about it in the
first place. i am not afraid of your judgement,
and i know you won't judge me. but it's something
i am still unsure of, hence i didn't want to share it.
i am sure there are things that you didn't share
with me also, isn't there. touch your heart and
answer honestly. all in all, it ain't about the trust.
it's just the unwillingness to share it, due to the
doubts. please, just give me some time before
i explain everything clearly to you alright?
the way you ignore me today practically
threw me off my feet, i panicked, even though
it doesn't seem that way. but please, don't ever
do this again. it's hard to cope and mask those fears.
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nights guys.
sleep tight
and take care