that person you want to be.

hey guys!
so, i removed the previous inside
joke. i don't want to have people
seeing them and complaining to my
friends once again. so honestly, there
is nothing much going on today. just
looking forward to tomorrow's training.
hmm, hopefully, my legs won't hurt
that much. you see, every time after frog
jumps, my legs would ache for half a week
or more. so, through that time, i'll be like
a walking zombie, yet i could still crack
lame jokes with my friends. retard.
don't know why, yet it seems that, i have
to keep up that facade, to show that i am
fine as always. like how you know me from
the start hyped up and practically crazy.
oh well. that's just how it is.
*
there is always that person you want to
be, you would give up anything to be
that person. however, you just can't.
well, complicated huh? that's just how life
is. if you don't know, welcome to life.
so let's say, i am the way i am. 163cm, 60kg,
moderate size? actually more like bulky.
look manly or rather sporty in kind words.
average looking that no one chooses as first
choice. so i wish to be this girl. tall, pretty,
skinny, not so much muscles, graceful and all
the other things that a girl would dream to be.
thing is, i can't. if i have to give up everything
for that person i want to be, i can't and i won't.
there would just be unforeseen circumstances that
pull you back telling you,"no, you can't be that person."
somehow. you will not be you anymore. i mean, if
you ever change into your dream character.
it will never be you again. people will see you
differently. so will you choose that or remain the
person you are? and that's the question for
the post.
*
alright nights guys(: