annoyed

i'll do it when i want to get it done.
don't compare and just let me be.
yes it may be selfish of me saying it
but have you thought that times
changed? and for your information,
i hate it when you keep nagging me to
do things when i just to do it own time
own target. right. back to studying. you
are against me listening to music while
i study but there you are watching your
television programs in the living room,
just next to mine with the volume turned
up till i could hear them clearly. do you
even know how distracting it is? yet, it
ain't the first time all of us had reminded
you. so it becomes my fault that i can't
concentrate when you watch your television.
it's my fault i don't have to heart to study
thanks to you. once again, my fault i can't
stand the smell of cigarettes. when we have
already said so countless times that smoking
is prohibited in the house. yeah, maybe i
shouldn't blame my lack of motivation on
you, but you know what? don't come over
ordering me to do things i don't want to then.
studying university is what you want me to do.
not what i want to achieve. stop forcing what
you think is best for me into me. i am honestly
not interested at all. for god's sake, i don't
really care about what you think. i just respect
you as my dad. just because i am you child doesn't
mean i have to follow your footsteps or the ones
you want me to follow. intruding my privacy every
single time. don't even bother remembering
my friends name yet act like you know them. try
to know me better yet force your opinions on me
in the process. good job man, well done in fact.
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everyone have their own rights and choices they have
to make themselves. you can only suggest and advise.
forcing your opinions on them is unfair. see where you
got her to. putting all the risky choices for her 12 choices.
what else do you have to say for yourself? actually, don't
bother, i am not interested if it's just another talk about
it's the best for you and we're worried about your future.
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i have no plans to study uni. not now. i don't want to
commit to any religion.  want to be able to choose my
own religion. the right to believe in what i want to believe
in. the right to be with whoever i want. to be able to talk
to my bros and friends whenever i want to. there are just
things i can't share with you guys, cause you'll never understand.
being overprotective and all, if i ever pass that stage. unable
to stay out late with my friends to socialize. for god's sake,
they stay nearby, i will reach home safely. when did you
ever not see me do that.
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ugh better get on to work before the nagging begins
and silent is the best way to treat it cause whatever
that is being said is not processed and understood.
whatever you said is right, to you, everyone else is
wrong. salute to you.
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bye