silence

hey guys!!!! today is the last day of school already. well, next week is common tests week. damn .-. anyways i am done with most of the assignments. well, most. left that one more. ughhhhh.sucks being me.
i am hungry. freaking hungry in fact. like i think i can eat a dinosaur. then again, i don't feel well. i feel giddy and restless. every single time i am doing something, once in a while, i feel like vomiting. oh well.
moving on..
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it's fine. yes we promised on no secrets and this is what i get? so much for trying and getting things back to how it used to be. is it that hard to put it behind? just learn from them and try not to repeat history.so what's this? all i get is silence? i am practically raging inside. i just haven't scream or shout at you. honestly i want to. hopefully i could hammer some logic into you also. that might work. ughhh.. after my project in the morning some bloody slacker didn't help out in the project, have the cheek to say so. present one of the slides. show no sign of repentance. now i get this?! wow, thanks for making my day. i think i'll just starve myself to death today. god knows what else would i do. probably see a doctor soon anyways. i keep feeling giddy and cough and flu are my friends now. like best friends literally. i didn't even get to touch or sleep on my bed for the last 24 hours. screw that for the last 36 hours and probably won't be sleeping today again. i'll probably be in he library or in the study room. i miss my bed. i miss the quiet times i used to have to myself. where all this stuff won't bother me so much. when i don't have to care about what you feel and able to express myself freely. that's comfortable. no i am just like living in a burning house. telling myself the heat don't matter at all. so much for voicing out. if you can't accept me for who i am just go ahead. i am used to people leaving anyways. just say so. i stop trying. A for effort anyways.
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burn