just rants

yeah so like what the title says. this will just be a ranting post. nothing more.
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all the texts that i receive from you make me feel that you are actually just talking to prove that i am in the wrong and you don't deserve this kind of treatment. well, you know, if it wasn't for you, i wouldn't even have walked into that badminton court last night. i wouldn't have worsen the already double twisted ankle. i might have recovered and able to go for badminton training today rather than lazing at home doing nothing. then before, i have to hear about your things second hand. things that is happening in your life and what had happened that you have told other people and not me. it amuses me to see you say all these stuff. continuously trying to prove that i am having attitude problems and you don't deserve to be treated that way. well, guess what, even though i will probably regret this later, i am sick of giving in every single time. sucking everything up like as if every single fucking thing is my fault. it's enough. like as if you ever listened when i advice you not to. so why is it that i have to listen to whatever you advice? not to sell insurance to her, cause her financial status is not stable and not trustworthy but you did and got into deep shit. not to get back with her cause she don't deserve you and you deserve better. i don't even know what happened after. maybe i don't bother finding out anymore. if you want to say it go ahead. so now, when i am dating this guy that you don't approve when you don't even know him personally, you go around telling people about it. does it fucking look like i tell your matters to other people? i don't even know why i am still here. i always get pissed and mentally drained about your stuff and whatever shit i am being dragged into by her. i am really damn tired. i forgot how many fucking times i am on the edge just because we fought and have to apologize to clear things up, try to make things like before. this time, whatever lah. i want to just sleep through this one.
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it's like a slap in the face. the cold messages. so it's like you can text all the sweet messages and when you can't be bothered you just send all the cold messages. the next day you apologize. it's as if i slap you and give you a candy. then the next time i punch you and treat you a meal. you like that? how nice. for the next 24 hours, i am just gonna ignore all the messages and shit stuff. my phone shall only be for my games and music. that's all.
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have fun bitches.