been too long

“But he who dares not grasp the thorn
Should never crave the rose.”






and really it has been too long. the last time i have actually posted something was like last month. well, guess i shall blog monthly then. works for me.
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things have really been on the go for me. well, for those that care, i am single again and i have really been studying, not now but you get what i mean. i have been happy and i got the need to catch up with some of my friends probably after my exams. let's start all over from the beginning okay?
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so the drama production was a success despite all the daggers that were being thrown around behind the curtains. the best part was we finally get to move on to the camp. in the end it wasn't even good. the comm took over everything and when i saw the finalized schedule for the camp and the delegations of the roles. i was like what the fuck. literally. i just woke up and saw the notifications looked through it from my phone and repeated that phrase for the next ten minutes being hysterical at the same time. well, first, the place that we were supposed to stay at, gone. cause it wasn't booked earlier and cause they were "too busy" with the production. not that everything was already done last minute. second, as quoted from some people, the camp should be related to drama and poof, half of the games calvin and i drained our brains for are gone. poof. third, both of us coordinated the camp, and without knowing, all the credits went to the comm. fourth, we knew most of the games before it was mostly scraped, hence we volunteered for the delegations of roles. poof, most games gone and i am in charge of all the mass games in day two. WHAT THE FUCK PEOPLE WHAT THE FUCK?????? and the list haven't reach the end. fifth, the shirt isn't even related to drama. six, everything is done among the comm and we only know it after everything is confirm. so, WHY THE FUCK DO YOU ADD US IN THE GROUP? you might as well just treat us as normal campers. since you guys are so good at everything why not just do everything yourselves and lead it also? seven, the nightwalk was changed into something that cannot be interpreted. well, for me. maybe i am stupid after all. thanks to all this i just made up my mind. i am just gonna sit back and relax. watch how all of you make this work. i bet it'll be interesting. always think that you are all high and mighty huh? go ahead, it'll just be a good show for me.
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okay my keys are on fire. never mind moving on. my racket frame cracked big time. so i got a new racket, brave sword 11. it worked pretty well for me. and studies wise, i think i scored well for my BCOMM impromptu speech, cause she kept smiling at me during my presentation and to top it off, the whole class clapped. well, that's a good sign for me. i am happy. lastly  i think, i broke up and gone back to the single hood. well, i am happy, i feel free, and i don't have to worry when he is emotionally unstable, am i suppose to check on him, if he is injured so on so forth. to be honest, most of the things, i have warned him about it already, for example, he had injured his tail bone and knee. i told him to give it a month and he didn't. he brought it upon himself. the truth is, no one is able to change. not your personality at least. think about it. when you were young and you see a playground, you will run towards it no doubt. times in the past it is like a heaven for kids. now you just walk pass it. think about it, spend a minute and look back when you were once a kid. nothing much have changed. just that you are taller and more mature and learn things that just tear you apart. but things like your favourite food and hobbies won't change much right? so yeah. change is impossible.
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that's all i guess. for all i know, i know who will be there for me in times of need, and you will not be one of them. during this whole time, thanks to the drama mates; calvin, vijay, justin, diva, tabs. my babes; chloe, di hang, jiawen. my forever bro; kaki. school mates; lee peng, eve, mei xuan. badminton mates; darren, wei jun, zen(unreal people) and max(unreal people). last but not least; bryan piggy my cck buddy
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nights to all you people out there
sweet dreams
and just let the demons pull you down