over again
*
Felicia walked around the room in circles. anxious yet fearful of what Dylan might say to her after what she had done today. she reminiscence this afternoon where she lied to Christine about being busy and matchmake Christ and Christine. She had text Dylan about what she had done however, Dylan was Chris childhood friend, both of them know each other inside out, Chris to Dylan is irreplaceable. She was thinking of how Dylan would react when the doorbell rang. She stood rooted to the ground unable to decide if she should open the door or pretend she is not home.
LISS I KNOW YOU ARE IN THERE! OPEN THE DOOR!
she moved towards the door reluctantly. opened it and peeked through the small hole.
Hey there Mr. James. she said timidly.
Do you want t let me in, or should i just rant here?
Felicia opened the door and let him in. Dylan strode in, loosened his tie and sat on the couch with his hands covering his face. Felicia sat down cautiously beside him.
Liss why not you tell me what on earth are you doing?
I was just introducing a friend of mine to Christine.
and she's married! Why do you not understand that she is christain's wife?!
i just thought that i am helping her to move on with her life.
do you even think that is what she wants? she got mad at you right?
the inner rage that had been building up in felicia exploded.
how would you know? you can't even keep an open mind! you don't know how it feels like! what if the one that had died is christine? do you know what she had been through? the way she drinks and cuts herself to escape reality?! do you know how much my heart ache for her? DO YOU KNOW HOW THAT FEEL?
*
christine? christine! where are you? i bought your dinner!
felicia pushed opened the bathroom door. the water overflowed from the bathtub. an empty bottle of vodka at the side the bathtub. a razor blade in the sink. christine was in the bathtub with her nightdress on. thick red angry lines decorated her arms and thighs. blood flowed out of them like the extension of the lines. her eyes half opened. slowly she submerged her head into the waters.
CHRISTINE!
what's wrong? why are you crying? hahahahhha. i'm tired.
let's get you to bed.
Felicia helped her change out of her wet clothes and tug her in.
Where's Christ? he should be home by now. my darling where is he?
He's gone. He's never coming back.
Christine stared at Felicia eyes wide with horror. Then the tears start flowing out of her eyes. she started pulling off the bandages Felica had done for her.
The accident, i deserve to die. the accident, i deserve to die. she murmured to herself repetitively.
Felicia couldn't stop the droplets of water from coming out of her eyes. To see Christine suffer, living in denial. It kills her inside and what's worst is that there is nothing she could do to help her get out of that stage and move on with her life. the way she behaves, always drinking and cutting herself, hallucinating that Christain is still around.
Just sleep for now. Everything will be fine by tomorrow.
okay.
Felicia started humming the tune of beauty and the beast while christine tried to sleep.
*
Felicia stared at Dylan. He was shocked for what she said but it got him thinking. His hardened expression softened slowly. he opened his arms and hugged felicia tightly.
i don't like this idea but i'll keep an open mind. i am sorry babe, i didn't know it had put you through so much pain. i am so sorry.
*
thats's all for today.
so sorry for the super long update.
i had common tests.
goodnight midnight bunnies!!
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