Shouldn't Have

Maybe I just couldn’t be honest anymore. The worst part is that I couldn’t be honest to myself anymore.

The probing that I shouldn’t have admitted.

The words that shouldn’t have said.

The walls that I should have built.

The promises that I shouldn’t have gave.

The actions that I shouldn’t have fell for.

The things that I shouldn’t have fell for so easily.

So many things done wrong but there weren’t any actions done to make up to them. There wasn’t anything to be done in the first place. Whatever’s done is done. No matter how hard you try to compensate it, the fact that it happened would still remain intact. It’s just that I don’t want to be in this position right now. It’s rather impatient but any longer I wouldn’t be able to pull myself out of the situation anymore. I would be that tamed little puppy that lost its freedom. No more. Anymore of this I would fall too hard and it’ll be too tedious to get back up on my feet again.

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"She's the kind of girl you never see coming. It starts off simple and two months later you're saying, you are my world. she told me 'I want a kiss' and I knew I was in trouble. I want to spend every night tucked up in the mystery that is her mind. What is she thinking? What does she want? Is this enough for her? Am I enough for her? Some people you can read; she's a novel written in another language. Things like this are never easily understood. It was unexpected It gives me hope that the world is a good place. She gives me hope that I am good. I look into her eyes and I'm in her soul, completely transfixed. She wraps her arms around me and I swear no one has ever felt safer in this world. Fingers intertwined with mine and I'm sure we can take on the world. Lying next to her I feel her magic, the kind you can only find in a girl who finds humour in everything. She kisses me and i sprout wings that take me to a place where we're together. Sometimes she laughs and I swear it's the it's the cure for any disease. It healed me. She feels like home. No better than that; she feels like where I belong, where I was always supposed to be. I wasn't looking for anyone; she's it. She's the kind of girl that can change our life.

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The second post is something i got off from tumblr that i felt the need to share.

Meantime goodnight midnight bunnies:3