Worth It

Even in the end, if it’s all just a misunderstanding, the times spend with you are still worth it.

He puts up with all kinds of ridiculous requests that she makes, when she is too lazy. Things like delivering food to her right outside her doorstep, just because she doesn’t feel like going out. Following her to places to run errands for her mum or when she had to do something at the station. Even though, it was troublesome, he still put up with it. It gave her the sense of reliance. Like a big blanket covering her when she is cold, it felt warm.

His texts, made her smile every single time. From talking about their troubles to giving her lessons on what each emoji means. All the good morning and good night texts lit a smile on her face, because she knows that someone is out there to greet her. All the consoling and enlightening messages calms her down, because she knows that there will be someone out there for her to talk to whenever she is upset. All the emojis inside the messages makes her laugh out loud every single time, because she always use whichever when she feels like it ignoring the meanings. Even though it was just texting, all the time taken for it might sum up to a big amount of time, but to her, it was like a daily happy pill.

His hugs, felt like the chubbiest pillow that she have ever hugged. He wasn’t fat or anything but hugging him just felt like home. It started as an awkward one whenever she exits the lift. Gradually, it became a habit. Whenever no one is around, his hands would be over her shoulder pulling her closer to him. Before she heads home while exiting the lift, she would just turn towards him and lean. It was as though he was her pillar of strength. Even though, it was just a hug, it made her happy.

His kisses, felt like a dog licking its owner. Wet and sloppy, but each time when she pulls back and see his smile, she felt her face reflecting his’. Just smiling goofily at each other. The kisses were always deep like nothing else matters. Even though, it wasn’t the kind that she really like, but it was the smiling face that came after that she was satisfied with.

In the end, when all questions were clarified, he just treated her like a friends with benefit. To her, she had knew the outcome even before she cleared things up. The late night texting with other girls, the pictures of pretty girls that he always scroll through. She never really had a chance to begin with, it was all just false hope. Just, a no strings attached relationship. But still in the end, it was all worth it.

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Goodnight midnight bunnies:3